Accusing Oneself
Brendan was sinking deeper and deeper into a depressed state of mind that same summer. He admitted to being depressed to GQ. Even worse, he started to believe that he deserved what had happened to him and that what had occurred to him was his responsibility. Because I was thinking, “This is nothing; this guy reached around, and he got a feeling,” I was upset and hated myself. As the summer carried on, I can’t recall what I continued to work on after that.